( 5-3-2024 Journal Entry) Have you ever had a time in your life where you had a vision of something you were being called to do to make a difference but then you allowed the ego to convince you it was egotistical? Kind of funny when you think about it. The ego telling you you’re being egotistical for wanting to help people. The very essence of egotistical is being self-centered. But that was my ego in protection mode.
In the last 24 hours I have been reminded of a vision, a heart calling, I had many years ago. I listened to my ego.
It told me I can’t do it.
It told me I needed a college degree to do it.
It told me I wasn’t wise enough to do it.
It told me who am I to think I can do it.
It told me the only way to do it was to be a supporting character for someone else (a man) doing it.
And then….
My whole life started to change. And change. And change. And change.
While I listened to my ego I can see why that was exactly the right course of action at that time. It could not be lovingly birthed from the previous mindsets.
Fast forward 20 something years later and the dots are being connected fast a furiously at the moment. On paper first as I just surrender without attachment. Then I will sit with what has come forth & listen quietly on whether the time for birthing is here now. My gut says yes because when I think about it coming to fruition it excites and scares the shit out of me. my intuitive sign post
Have you had a calling, a heart vision, that your ego had you put aside? Has it been coming back up for you recently? If so, I would love to hear about it and see how I can support you.